Dear Matty

19 months ago today you were taken from us so abruptly..without any notice or warning.
So many questions run through my mind everyday..mostly what if?
What if.....................
Not a day, hour, minute or second goes by that you not on my mind.
I can't help but feel a little angry that the last few months of your life you felt like crap in terms of your health.
You surely did not catch a break the last few months of your life and that is why I am so angry...why would God let you go through all of that crap starting in Sept when you were at CHOP and then having two surgeries before the crash..only to die??
Not to mention the suffering you endured with your Crohn's Disease--oh how you hated the infusions and shots!
I really am trying to remember the good times in life that we had with you..but the reality is Matthew..days like this really get me down. How can life ever be the same without you????
I will say this were loved by so many people and your friends truly have been our biggest support.
Just when those bad days come along, I might get a random text, email or Facebook message or something that eases the pain. I hope you know how lucky you are to have so many people that genuinely love and care for you. 19 months later and no one has forgotten about you...I know that many people still visit your crash site.
You are a true gift to were so kind, caring and extremely generous to your friends.
Your smile was infectious and you lit up the whole room and now Matthew you light up the whole sky.
I look to the stars and I know you are shining so bright....
I hope you can see how life has changed for us...
I was telling Dad the other night the one thing I miss most is our long talks--boy we could talk about anything and were so open and I admired that about you. I thought as a parent I was to teach you about life...yet, there was so much you taught me and many others about life.
I know outside of your health issues you did live life..and for that I am glad that you lived life to it's fullest!!
We love and miss you so much!!!
Mom <3 Dad
12-28-92 <3 2-14-10
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One last thing now you may have met a little girl Gabby Vogel who lost her battle with a rare cancer..please look after were so good with little kids and I am sure she will find comfort in your presence. <3
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